Thursday, May 19, 2005
Yesterday I went for my roller blading...I didn't know much...But at least, i learnt how to glide and stand up...It was fun!!! Today, I went to Laboradol Park or wateva park is that...I went there for a Geography Trail...When we got there, What i saw first was only trees and leaves...The teacher said we had to do pair work..The teacher asked me to go with Enos...He's a very quiet and not active boy..In the bus, xue li said to me that we could do together wif 4 people together! Den, I was happy wif that sentence...We went deeper and deeper into the forest...We had to draw and solve questions...Xue li and Enos drew the pictures of some plants...It was sooo funnie!!! Haha...Well..After the trail, we got back into the bus and went back to school...During our free time, before going back to class after the trip, Wei chi and me wanted to go up...But suddenly Wei chi said he wanted to buy french fries...So we went back to buy...When we were on the way, suddenly someone shouted and a fight broke out..From where i stood, I could see everybody standing still and watching them fight..I was shocked to see wat was happening...Before i went to buy food, I already saw few of our class girls were at the place where they fought...And Xue li was one of them...The fight was quite awhile...I looked around, no teacher was around to assist them..I really wonder why..After the fight was over, Wei chi said, he dont want to buy anymore...We went back up...When we were on the way, I saw Xue li and her frenz...I asked her was she afraid when the fight broke out? I could see from her expression that she was really really afraid..She told me she was afraid...When we all went up to the third floor, Xue li cried becuz she was very very very shocked by wat happened earlier...She told me the guys who fought were juz beside her..Juz a few cm away...I could understand that...Cuz when i was quite far away from them..I was already shocked... During chinese lesson, our teacher gave us back our papers..And now we all know our marks...Xue li got 60+ for her chinese i think..I onli got 55!!! I was disappointed in all my marks...None of them were above 80...Xue li's mark was below mine...I really did not expect her to get that low...When she knew her marks were that low...She cried..Espcially her history..She failed her history and she immediatly cried..I juz wanted to comfort her..But i couldn't..I cant..I dont know wat to do...Juz wanted to say: " The papers were difficult, try harder the next time round"...But i juz couldn't say it out! Instead, I said other things...Those things i said to her and tried to comfort her, hurt her more..She cried more...At that time, I really felt lousy..Useless..Unsuccessful person...I kept thinking and thinking over it...I wondered if i was the problem...Did i appear in her life and made her be distracted and not concentrating on her exams? If i was the problem in letting her getting high marks for her exams, I may give up on her...I will do that if there's the only way for her to get high marks...I really hope she'll get higher marks for her CA2..And hope there'll be some way out...Mayb I could go study wif her before the exams...
ƒroš†y Jäilßird was all alone at 7:46 PM
